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12:41am: this journal...
will not be updated on a regular basis!



peace!



umm yea MY friends are great!

1:32am: i think i should be doing my homework!

IM COACH SABINO! i have been a very busy person over the past several months and now take on a new role in society as a coach for the SGHS boys volleyball team. I am very excited to teach something i love doing ;) my life is gettin more complex as days pass by and i dont regret a single thing because i have the best support systems a young man like me could ever want! i love my family!
<my dad just got back home after being away for about 2 wks. he went back to his home to the pinas, to attend his mom, my lola's funeral... my lola was a great person and will never be forgotten! RIP LOLA Berling...>
I LOVE MY FAMILY
I LOVE MY FRIENDS + GIRLFRIEND
the month started out great, its like JP's bday is the WHOLE month thing haha! JP's day went from GANI'S RIDE, to the outlets, to OAKS, to TODAI's resturant, to the outside of TODAI's, to VENTURA BLVD in the RAIN with a EURO-car with a FLAT =P, to the steaming CAM, to the comforts of my house to dry off for some... that day was just long...... long enough to be considered a tight ass day that i would do all over again =} (but hold up lemme replenish my funds...haha) THANKS GANI without you the day would have not been possible!

FUN things just keep poppin up! i became a model for a day for vince's project. that was tight i was in scrubs and it felt good. i havent worn scrubs since i left concorde. concorde was great i think i really found myself become more independent in life situations, i think thats some good i got out of that school. well yea VINCE took pics of me in front of a hospital ( NOt saying where but i got witnesses lol). the twins took us there and it was fun. that day i was like DR. Sabino, pepole thought i was a doctor and asked for directions lol (spice it up haha) THANKS KEN AND KRIS for taking vince and i that was fun but cold... & THANKS VINCE for starting my modeling career lol =P then my house the same night.

CAn't forget the CHURCH of GAMES and MY MATE' on a PIRATE SHIP when nothing is goin down or when we just feel like chillaxin... god's house or CMO's house. there are fun times there esp the brawls lol jk, but the games Madden, Halo, Live, 2k5's and march madness which is the latest craze even if i get whooped... THANKS TO ALL THE PARTICIPANTS that go there CMO, ABE, KEN, KRIS, JEUZ, JONNY, PHIL, JP, VINCE, gOD, and BULLET cool you made it that day. (need to catch up with MAX, NICK, PETER, JERI, DAVE, WYLIE, X)

"GUYS JUST LET THE GOOD TIMES ROLL!"

you kno what was cool on JPs night after todai's, the gfs got to bond. it was cool how jeuz's gf, kris' gf and my gf connected in some level and that was awesome! lol. Roxanne told me she had a great time with all of us (which is great to hear because i dont really drag her with me everytime i go out with the FRIENDS).
I KNOW MY FRIENDS ARE TIGHT!

GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS, one word for each of the homie girls that are regularly out with us VAL, TRICIA, RAISA, CHIARA... how would it be without you gals =) i can't imagine how it would be without u 4. NO REALLy i CANT HAHA. its great u 4 can relate to us, speak like us average, well if u wanna call us average guys haha... THANK YOU ALL for BEING SUCH GREAT PALS!
CONGRATS TO VAL! i just heard about the great news yesterday!

so umm its friday early AM now and i have class at 9 and i didnt do my hw... so im off to sleep i guess
FRIENDS NOT MENTIONED in this LJ im sorry, but my brain is shutting down... sorry, but i kno if u kno your great i guess you great as well LOL tru dat right?!
comment on me and ill put ur name on an LJ for recognition haha peacE!
goodnight to all
i think the weekend will be off the hook again! RIGHT FRIENDS?!?!?!

*JK-OUT!

12:49am: 2 part journal

IM TIRED...

so many thing happened over the last year... i have been riding on highs and sunk down to lows, well that was the past and i will cherish all those highs & want to forget those lows, unless i already forgot them haha. I became more independent and came to a conclusion after several weeks of thinking... i dont think Everything will be the way they used to be (sad to say) but must respect it, though i lean toward the other direction at times... it's been a tough couple of months of thinking, but i have to move on...

CHANGE to some can mean good, CHANGE to some can mean bad... I had faced change and i got a dose of both... "life goes on"  

-=Case closed=-

NOW TO A HAPPY SIDE of this JOURNAL!

Thank God for a 4 day weekend... Mario Party was off the hook 2-3-1-9 that game was unpredictable, even i had to say so... haha... BUT march madness was too predictable 41-7... that was pathetic im horrible in that game... lol but its all good (CSUN had a dope gym lol)... i went to the mall with my mom and brothers that was great havent done that in a while...these events have relieved my stress for the second week of school...

I dont look for happiness cuz  happiness is Nearly everywhere i turn...

IT's JP's DAY! HOLLA!

 

1:07am: almost there
my day was pretty cool today. i woke up late rushed to drop off my brothers to school then rushed to valley to take my final. i got an A in that class, all on my own HOLLA! after bio strolled valley, came across ramil and bruce, that was cool. so yea after valley i drove around lookin for a place to eat, but then decided to go home. got home got a new fish! i can think of a name for him, but ill post that later. worked out with jeuz at 24, then went to buy chicken for my potluck for my night class, then went home ate, chilled, chatted then went to CMOs, there we went to video city to look for a "specific game." after cmos i went to get my bros and my GF at school. had a long talk with my girlfriend, which started off bad then ended good. i guess im to friendly at times with new people and she knows how i act when i make new friends. its kool tho we worked thing out and i love her =) alot! ok after i took her home went to night class and had a huge ass potluck! food from all cultures around the world; filipino, thai, korean, jap., russian, armenian, french, mexican, chinese, and indian! my night class is tight! ima miss all my friends in both classes it was a good 5 weeks of my life being in school for 50+ hours a week. im not exagerating. so yea after my night class passed by my girlfriends house to drop off some food, the movie was moved to friday so i went home and sang the night away till i got an urgent call "john u still coming jeuz is about to start rivercity." after that call i stopped singing and bounced to CMOs again. there i watch teamwork come in play, it was like a batman and robin kinda thing, but i think batman would have died in that senario... haha vid games the rest of the night, then helped chris put his bed together. nice bed chris lets c if this bed can stand the curses ur room has when there are more than 4 guys in the room at one time. lol but yea this day was fun. no i have to get ready for my final tomarrow goodnight!
i have some nasty english usage, its ok its my journal lol ;P

10:30am: yesterday my family girlfriend and i went to HACIENDA HEIGHTS for my lil cousins bday! mingled with the family i havent seen in a while, i met a friend of my cousin that is related to alyssa. ate a grip of food, watched the scorpion king with my cousins, bros and girlfriend at the party. after the party we went to the marriote in NORWALK to perform in a contest! we got 3rd place in the perfornamce with a $100 for the whole group which consisted of relatives and family. Money wasnt the main reason for me doing the performance, but the experience was great, it was like i was back in the phillippines marching on the road for an anual festival! it was a good night indeed!

2:26am: the long weekend begins again!
u know it!

2:17pm: i swear i dont know what day it is everytime i wake up in the moring!

its been days since jonny's bday pasted and i didnt even realize what day it was today. HAPPY BELATED bday to him. i swear school is fuckin up my social and interactive life during the weekdays, i dont even know the dates till i get to friday cuz im so occupied... lol its almost over but i guess its gonna be this way for years to come. its ok tho, "i do what i want to get where i want!"

im cold ima nap.

12:02pm: what a weekend again!

this weekend was TIGHT again!
Made possible by my awesome friends! it was great starting thursday night ending monday morning.
- chillaxed everynight if i remember... (my short term memory sux cuz i dont get enough sleep)
- MY BABY CAME BACK after being honored as MISS SAN FABIAN of S. CALIFORNIA at the pinas; parading, feasting, partying, crowning, shopping i missed it all cuz of school! its ok tho I LOVE HER alot! *i would like to thank my friends for keeping my company while she was away for 2 wks*
- god's house with the GUY GAME

- JP's Sisters party at the hall ( if you werent there you completely missed the point!)
- the PATS whooped the steelers thats all that mattered there haha
- chilled and wasted out time at SGHS
- chiaras house unforgetable
- ganis house unforgetable [for some], forgetable [for some] haha
    - JP is the PAC MAN CHAMP as of NOW with 23870 pts around there
- that wasnt all the events, cuz i really dont remember it all...

NOW its TIME to wait for the up n' coming weekend.

but for now the homies holla back!

10:53am: winter session is about done
i have a bz schedual this month but im hanging in there. school during the week and friends during the weekend its fucking great! lol... MY girlfiend just got back from the pinas, so she can give me company any time i can contact her. I LOVE ROXANNE!
its time to go to church.
bye guys and my gals!

12:02am: Great weekend!
i had a long ass weekend that started on thursday night and ended monday tonight!
it was very cool, thats all i have to say =P
NOW SCHOOL STARTS again...

12:03am: i miss my girlfriend!
day 1 has passed

LATE NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS:
be a better person
get my stuff straight
avoid fast food
get my arms and chest back
do anything to get a six-eight pack! esp avoiding the "six-pack" ;)

i think im getting there on the better person part. my clouded mind has been cleared a bit but
time will hopefully clear it all up.

11:40pm: resolved
i had a good talk last night with a open minded person, most things got clarified.
greatful that it happened, i was tired of the drama ( i cant believe it even happened...)
i DONT EVER WANT TO BE IN ONE AGAIN!

it should be over now,
so back to life, back to reality for me

3:49am: Cant forget about Nick
HAppy birthday again Nick i should have posted this on JAN. 6 but i just finished my Lj essay... haha

2:25am: anyone have comments?
Is the strenght of your friendship measured by the amount of time you hang with your friends?

Personally, i have DRIVE for my life and i know for myself i dont kick it everytime im asked to hang out due to out of the way situations, but when i do hang out, i go because i feel it will be time to escape from my bz life and it will be a benifit to catch up with the homies.

why did i even post this entry?
over the past days i have felt and heard the chatter about "taking sides."
i thought i would never be part of a drama so bad that would escalate to a point of questioning your own friends about their friendship toward you. (personally i hate all this drama). I don't persuade or question people to answer if thier on my side or against me, thats up to them.

Why am i made to be seen as a BAD guy when most of my life i have show great support to my friends?
For example:
if the guys wanna talk they know they can come to me cuz they TRUST me.
i have been there for talks about girl problems especially and i do my best to help them out.
i have been there to talk to them when they have family issues (if they needed a place to crash my house was the spot).
i always use to volunteer as a cover up for them if they need excuses ( "john i was with you" and that was cool).
O & common kris and i would even talk to most of the parents just to reassure them that we were safe last night and everything was ok.

i still can fathom the position im in right now, its like im back in HS or something...
im doing my best to act as a mature adult and let things go by cuz it aint worth MY energy fussing about it.

I have seen myself as an older brother, sometimes a DAD to all of my friends over the past years.
i have been a person my friends can talk and relate to
i have been a person who would watch out for my friends when they get fucked up too much
and dont forget i have been a chauffeur to many of you (so dont forget i have done you a favor in the past i been your driver in the early days when many didnt drive (i extended my service to you) and dont accuse me of freeloading [dats so fucked up!]).

i have alot more in mind but damn, drama of 04-05 why the fuck am i in this portrayed as the antagonist


To end it on a happy note =)

ITS MY BIRTHDAY im 20!

goodnight everyone!

12:29am: HAPPY NEW YEARS!
Guys and gals have a great 2005. See all you friends soon!

4:32pm: post talk
today is a day that is supposed to be good & bring in a happy new year. i really really think i should have held back on the talk because it gave me a very short fuckin fuse once i got home. today im supposed to relax and spend time peacefully with my family, but an internal conflict has arose and rage subsides in me right now. what has done has been done. i dunno if some can still see me as the nice friendly john that wont say shit, but this is my new turn around breakout year 2005. i thought i would never hold a grudge cuz i was always passive (as many of my friends kno). i always let my friends do what they want just as long as thier happy! happiness is the greatest thing i could wish for everyone, unfortunatly happiness awaits me.

fact: today the allies won! but nothing is fully solved. i believe it will be hard for some to scratch my surface, but yea do i give a fuck anymore, i hate fillers to take up time... like how it is said "whats done is done" its gonna be hard to change my views. i speak for myself right now...
so common take a hit at Greece

O and HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE to all of my SUPPORTING casts they know who they are!

10:15am: i hate gettin less than 6 hrs of sleep... now i gotta go to honeybaked ham then get ready to prep for the new year's eve party
everyone be safe today!
take care! i love my friends!

4:09am: cant sleep
thinking of what to post...

12:06am: HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE!
guys and gals be safe tonight! see you soon
what a night to close the year?! huh :)

11:23pm: my stay @ home day then 3 hours of TV...
well my day was chill stayed at home most of the day did some errands with my mom dave came over showed me his new phone then watched 3 hours of TV.

LOST is my new favorite TV series! i watched both eps. tonight and im hooked
then watched the tsunami special report.
after the special report i wanna join the a US Relief team to help out devistated counties...

this was a chillaxin day

11:30pm: why am i on this?
well i heard its the FAD (Fuckin Addiction Dude)
i dunno but im here now cant do anything about it